February 2012
its been a long week. as i woke up this morning things seemed so much different. i woke up to a text that i posted earlier and in addition another one … one of my brothers [in Christ] has been going through a rough time. he had been growing a lot and taking some big steps in the right direction. but he was being discouraged big time. but today was different. there was victory over whatever...
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If death is victory how afraid of life can you be?
i cant get my thoughts out. theres so much going on. and despite last night. i still feel drained. and i wish things didnt look so … packed. i feel like i dont know what i need anymore. i cant decide if i want to be around friends or if i want to be alone. i just dont know whats next. and i have to rely that God will provide for that.
love you<3
i dont even know. i got out of class today. today’s my shortest day of the week. i couldnt decide if i was emotionally fit to be around people or i just wanted to be alone. i was pretty sure i was gunna go home and nap. and relax. when i got down the street. i realized it was tuesday and i had time to get USC and hang out with courtney and go to EPIC [it’s a asian american christian...
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And I’m not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
Breathing Blood | Oh, Sleeper
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for we are nothing without brotherhood and...
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Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.
ive been blessed with the opportunity for about 6 months to mentor one of the hs youth. i cant even begin to describe how much of a blessing it really is. to be able to form this intimate relationship with someone who so confidently looks up to me is … breath taking. i remember like it was yesterday over a year ago when he first decided to accept Christ and i sat there and prayed along side...
i think last night i hit a point where i was extremely stressed. and i just felt uneasy. with different things on my mind constantly it began to eat me apart. that i was being enveloped in all this worry. and it really was too much to handle. i had some friends come over last night. to be able to talk to them was relieving but as much as i wished it helped it didnt. walked back into my house...
I Don’t Mind | Defeater
"Yeah I think you’re beautiful. I think you’re...
likeyouveneverseen:
-Levi the Poet
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I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart; before the “gods” I will sing your praise. I will bow down toward your holy temple and will praise your name for your unfailing love and your faithfulness, for you have so exalted your solemn decree that it surpasses your fame. When I called, you answered me; you greatly emboldened me. May all the kings of the earth praise you, Lord, when...
By Your Side | Tenth Avenue North
it’s been a crazy day. when it comes down to it. God is always good. and im blessed by a community of people i can rely on. so many people that i feel unafraid to sit down with and open my heart up to. people that will be honest and sincere, and will love me for who i am. i dont know where things are headed but i can trust that God is in control and that wherever things go my community will...
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control is something out of my control
last night i went to go talk to a friend and my friend looked at me and said, “you look defeated” and thats exactly how i feel. i feel defeated. i think through this God is teaching me a lot. this feeling of not having control has left me with no resort but to trust God. i think this story ends not where i want it to. which is probably why im fighting it, avoiding it. but God’s...
it’s valentines day. and as cliche as it might be the only unconditional love we can find is God. I drove to school today listening to “How He Loves” by John Mark McMillan [i hope I spelled his name right although I have a feeling I didn’t] . Really reflecting on how much I am pursued by God. I remember standing in the sistine chapel looking up at the painting by...
Why am I so scared?
sketchmedesire:
Why can’t I trust that God will provide for me?
Anonymous asked: Aren't you 20? you need to change your bio.
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Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord; Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy. If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you. I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
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Charm is deceptive,
and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
God if anything I’m releasing control. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can figure everything out in my head of what I want or how I want things to go. But if I’m not submitting to your will I’m a fool. You are above all and I acknowledge that Your plan is better than mine and that I’m an idiot whenever I think I know better.
Your will, not mine.
I love you
“My God and Father, while I stray // Far from my home in life’s rough way // Oh...”
– Charlotte Elliott (via levithepoet)
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Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.
last wednesday was my birthday, but the next morning i woke up to get ready for school and all. the earliest day of my week. and the last day of my week. so im really tired and out of it. my dads chillin the bathroom doing his thing and im doing mine. and he brings up that he went to the dermatologist the day before and they found a mole on his body that has signs of being cancerous. like all the...
doing a dating fast has been the hardest decision I’ve made in a long time. I never thought I would ever be challenged this much. there’s so much to learn that I never thought I had to deal with. things have come up that I never thought were an issue in the beginning. Above all I’ve really been challenged to find my all in God and constantly challenged to release my future. To...
“We cannot live unaffected by love. We are most alive when we find it, most...”
– Erwin Raphael McManus | Soul Cravings
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I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
God, I refuse to be angry with you.
this is where im at. im thinking a lot about community. what does it mean. where do i need to challenge myself more to embrace community. what areas am i lacking. after having my birthday past. i couldnt be more grateful to have it on an aacf meeting day. im not a big center of attention type of person. but i definitely felt so loved by the community there. by people i absolutely love. so whatever...
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No matter the weather God’s sun provides the rays And lights the way through this desolate maze Where the obstacles of life can leave your confidence dazed But I maintain through strife struggle and strain Gain character from persevering through pain
January 2012
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This place is trying to break my belief But my faith is bigger than all I can see What I need is redemption What I need is for You for to put me back on my feet