doing a dating fast has been the hardest decision I’ve made in a long time. I never thought I would ever be challenged this much. there’s so much to learn that I never thought I had to deal with. things have come up that I never thought were an issue in the beginning. Above all I’ve really been challenged to find my all in God and constantly challenged to release my future. To trust that my wants are no where close to what God has for me. I never thought that 5 months later I would be here. With a month more I think I’ve been put at a place … Sorta like a final exam. so however I go about this situation says a lot about my character and whether or not I’ve really walked away knowing what it means to be a man of God. I think there’s two ways I can go about the end of this and really how I finish this out will really say it all.

I dunno jus rambling. there’s so much going on and I just needa write stuff out to think things through. Sigh

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