i dont even know. i got out of class today. today’s my shortest day of the week. i couldnt decide if i was emotionally fit to be around people or i just wanted to be alone. i was pretty sure i was gunna go home and nap. and relax. when i got down the street. i realized it was tuesday and i had time to get USC and hang out with courtney and go to EPIC [it’s a asian american christian fellowship but its different then mine] . i made my way over there. and i got to hang out with courtney for awhile. we were able to have a lot of really quality conversations and also enjoy a lot of laughs. 

i think its fun walking into a new fellowship. not knowing anyone and being the outcast of a group. everything changes. it reminds me how important it is to be welcoming at aacf. i think God knew what i needed tonight. … lets rephrase that. God knew what i needed tonight. as they had some guy that serves on full time on EPIC sharing about leadership. we went through some verses. 

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

1 Samuel 16:7

and he shared. something like “i don’t know how but God takes what i have and He uses it”. 

i can’t relate more. i dont see myself as any leader. but people look up to me. i am somehow now the leader of college ministry at church. God, doesn’t judge me based on my physical appearance. He sees my heart. and He knows whether i am able to serve others or not. God takes the gifts that He has blessed me with and uses it. its crazy thought. but yes, God can use me. 

i love you<3